Understanding the Impact of Complex PTSD from Childhood Trauma

As a registered psychotherapist specializing in relational trauma recovery, I have seen firsthand the profound impact that childhood trauma can have on mental health and well-being. This article explores the internal experience of those who have endured such trauma, offering insight into the ways it shapes lives and affects daily functioning.

Complex PTSD from childhood trauma, particularly when caused by unsafe caregivers, leaves a lasting impact on mental health. While PTSD and C-PTSD share some similarities, such as being rooted in traumatic experiences, they differ significantly.

PTSD often arises from a single traumatic event, whereas C-PTSD stems from prolonged or repeated trauma, especially during formative years. Understanding this distinction is key to appreciating the unique challenges faced by those with C-PTSD. (World Health Organization, 2018)

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difference between PTSD and c-ptsd

In this post, we’ll break down what it feels like to live with C-PTSD and how it can impact your everyday life. By understanding these experiences, you can begin to recognize patterns and take steps toward healing. In this post, we’ll break down what it feels like to live with C-PTSD and how it can impact your everyday life. By understanding these experiences, you can begin to recognize patterns and take steps toward healing.

Chronic Health and Mental Health Challenges

One of the most pervasive effects of C-PTSD is the emergence of chronic health and mental health issues. Studies suggest that individuals with C-PTSD are at a higher risk of developing conditions like depression, anxiety, and autoimmune disorders, highlighting the profound mind-body connection in trauma. Individuals may struggle with conditions like OCD, depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, or borderline personality disorder. These challenges often intertwine with physical ailments, creating a cycle of discomfort and fatigue that can feel inescapable. (van der Kolk, 2021)

Substance Use Reliance and Numbing Behaviors

Many who suffer from C-PTSD turn to substances or addictive behaviours as coping mechanisms. Whether through alcohol, drugs, or other numbing behaviours, these actions serve as an escape from the overwhelming emotions and memories rooted in trauma. (Langeland, 2020)

Low Self-Esteem and Perfectionism

Despite outward appearances, individuals with C-PTSD often wrestle with deep-seated self-esteem issues. They may present a confident front while internally battling self-criticism and perfectionism, not just toward themselves but also toward others.

Living in Chronic Fight-or-Flight Mode

Hypervigilance is a hallmark of C-PTSD. Constantly scanning for threats, their nervous system remains on high alert, leading to chronic stress and exhaustion. This relentless state of readiness drains energy and diminishes overall well-being. (Bisson et al., 2021)

Dissociation and Maladaptive Daydreaming

C-PTSD can also cause individuals to dissociate, leading to issues with concentration, memory, and a tendency to space out. Some may engage in maladaptive daydreaming, fantasizing about living a different life or being a different person to escape their current reality.

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Core Shame and Feelings of Unworthiness

At the heart of C-PTSD lies toxic shame. Deep down, individuals often feel unlovable and unworthy, no matter their accomplishments or relationships. This pervasive shame fuels a cycle of self-doubt and emotional pain.

Compulsive Caretaking and Neglecting Personal Needs

Many with C-PTSD excel at taking care of others, anticipating and meeting their needs with remarkable skill. However, they struggle to identify or express their own needs, often feeling entitled to the same care they provide to others.

Emotional Flashbacks and Boundary Issues

Emotional flashbacks—intense, regressed states that return individuals to the feelings of their childhood—can arise unexpectedly. These episodes are often triggered by seemingly mundane experiences, such as watching a movie or having a conversation. Additionally, difficulties with setting and maintaining boundaries are common, often stemming from a lack of healthy boundary modelling in childhood.

Isolation and Emotional Avoidance

When overwhelmed, individuals with C-PTSD may self-isolate, avoiding their emotions and withdrawing from others. Paradoxically, they often yearn for connection and validation but struggle to let others in due to feelings of unsafety.

Suicidal Ideation and the Desire for a Better Life

While not necessarily suicidal, many with C-PTSD experience thoughts of wanting to escape their pain. At the same time, they hold a deep desire to live a life filled with love, vitality, and joy. This internal conflict creates a complex emotional landscape.

Control and Risky Behaviors

Over-controlling tendencies can emerge as a way to create a sense of safety. Some may also engage in risky behaviors, seeking a temporary reprieve from their inner turmoil. Fantasies of starting over or running away are common, driven by a longing for a fresh start.

The Overarching Role of Hypervigilance

Hypervigilance permeates every aspect of life for those with C-PTSD. The constant worry and stress make daily life feel like a relentless challenge, as they navigate the world with heightened sensitivity to potential threats.

Moving Toward Healing

Understanding these patterns is the first step toward healing. By recognizing the profound effects of C-PTSD, individuals can begin to seek help, build supportive relationships, and explore therapeutic interventions that address their unique needs. Healing is a journey, but it is possible to move toward a life of greater peace, connection, and self-acceptance. If you’re ready to take the next step, consider reaching out to a licensed therapist, exploring support groups, or utilizing trauma-informed resources to guide your path forward. (Time, 2023)

 

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Author, Stephanie Boucher

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Bibliography

World Health Organization. (2018). International Classification of Diseases (11th ed.). Retrieved from https://icd.who.int/

Van Der Kolk, B. (2021). The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma. Penguin Books.

Langeland, W. (2020). Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorders in Patients with Substance Abuse. European Psychiatry, 24(S1), S49-04. https://doi.org/10.1016/S0924-9338(09)70481-X

Bisson, J. I., et al. (2021). The Impact of Trauma-Focused Cognitive Behavioral Therapy on PTSD. The Lancet Psychiatry, 8(6), 475–487. https://doi.org/10.1016/S2215-0366(20)30544-8

Time. (2023). There Are No Good Treatments for PTSD. MDMA Can Change That. Retrieved from https://time.com/7008733/mdma-assisted-therapy-ptsd/

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